Ok I have had the fever for a long long long long time
Just sometimes it is worse than others
Baby Fever that is.
I'm talking the kind that you feel when you see/hear/hold a baby
the kind that totally consumes your thoughts, ideas and goals in life
the kind that is staring you in the face every time you look in the mirror
I know I have talked about this before
actually lots of times
I try to keep quiet about it
I try to stay positive
but it always finds its way into my conversations
I actually feel bad about it at times, it just comes out
At this point I'm not sure what to even think anymore.
I laugh, I cry, I scream
It gets better for a short time and then it comes rushing back
worse than before
I have always wanted kids
lots of them, I mean like 5!
But after all this time of meds, tests, trying and upsets
1 will do, seriously, just 1!
That's all I ask and pray.
So until that time I will keep wishing and waiting.
Praying and Hoping.
I am so thankful for so so so many things
I am looking forward to so many wonderful things in our life
but sometimes it just feels good to vent.
7 comments:
keep praying! I'll be praying for you too!
Aw. Erica! I will pray for you. You will be an awesome Mommy one day. Just remember he has a plan for all of us. Although it would be nice to see a blue print every once in a while.
Thank you so much girls :) It means alot to me.
Awww it will happen... maybe God has a great plan for you as far as how or when you will become a Momma :)
Listen Love. I dig when you get real! Because that is life, its messy and confusing and wonderful and stinky all at the same time. You will be a WONDERFUL mama when the time is right. No one knows when that day will be for you. But I will pray for you- its hard to have such a strong desire and not know what to do. But you are not alone remember. Kisses. PS. Loren's party totally ruled!
You know I am thinking and praying for you!!!! I always have baby fever! And I always feel bad when I bring up the subject (happens a lot for me too) but I can't help b/c it just happens. Our time will come:)
oh man, I could have written this myself. I know how you feel, Erica. Seriously. Definitely a test of my patience and trust in God lately. Praying for you, girl!
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