Tuesday, December 14, 2010

At some point in your life I believe that you have to take a step back and look at what makes you happy, what stresses you, what will make you a better person and to be able to count your blessings. Recently I have done this. I have taken a sabatical from doing photography as a business. It is hard for me to open up about this because I truly hope someday I can get back into capturing memories for people. I am going to be completely honest. At this point in my life I am not a businesswoman. I can't stand conflict. It is very hard for me to be stern and stand up for myself. It is hard for me to "realize how good" I am at photography. I got so lost in the business aspect that I forgot to enjoy it. As with anything the more you do it, the more it becomes a job. I want to enjoy photography again. I started to realize I didn't want to pick up my camera in the off time. Hubs even said to me one day "we don't do as much as we used to", my answer "Yes we do, I just don't document it like I used to.". I really don't want anyone to think they have caused this. This is a personal decision based on many things. I just want to get back to the most important things in my life. I want to be able to come home from work and spend time with hubs, I want to take pictures again without worrying about how they will turn out.


Leah Robinson said...

I'm not even kidding...it's like you opened up my journal and started reading it!! This past year has flown by, and Stella is turning 1 in less than a month :( I feel like I did so many shoots that I missed out on a lot of her life. Don't get me wrong I LOVE doing photography! But my #1 rule was NOT to make it a "job" and not to feel like a "job". And it's starting to....I'm starting to feel obligated to take people's pictures. And that's not what I wanted out of it. So this next year is going to bring some changes..I'm not going to miss moments of MY life any more =)

Erica said...

Maybe I am reading it??? jk :) I am so glad I am not alone in this. This next year we are going to enjoy every moment :)